It's strange to have to revisit your past experiences through the things your friends are going through. When I was younger, my sister passed way. My family is still recovering and it was over 12 years ago. My friends sister passed away this week ... not only did a feel the sorrow of her loss, I felt like I was going to relive all those moments again through her experience. It cut me deep. I never got to meet my friend's sister, and I was about to. I miss my sister so terribly and all those emotions came back up. I hope that I am a good friend to her in this sad time... I want to be the comfort for her that I never got... and just be there for her. People often times are not respectful of other's space at this time. I just want to make sure that everyone knows that we will be there for them. I do know one thing that has kept me going through it all. Just the belief that I am going to make it. And that my sister would have wanted me to happy. I don't know how to make this a less serious post but it's just been on my heart this day and I needed to get it out there. I hope this encouraged someone who's going through a death to know that they are not alone and that the person who died wouldn't want them to feel sad, but only to remember all the goodness of the life that they once lived.
Sunday, 20 January 2013
Thursday, 10 January 2013
Texting
I just realized that I'm an avid "texter"... I'm going to challenge myself for the whole of next week not to text and actually start communicating to all people at the very least over the phone... it's getting strange nowadays. We don't talk to people and we don't communicate as much as we used to do even though we currently have the easiest and most accessible means of communication in 2013.
I have had a few conversations with some of my friends about this modern day phenomenon ... And it has always baffled us. When I was in high school, none of us had cells phones and in grade 12, only me and another guy in our clique had cells, and this was closer to the point of graduation for us. Now, 8-year-olds have cell phones for "safety" purposes, as their parents would claim. While I am grateful with the applications that are on my iPhone that assist me with my serious directionally-challenged-ness, I miss the personal closeness of human connections and actually seeing someone's expressions and not just limiting them to an Emojicon...
The instance that really got me thinking about this was the time when I was taking the bus and 3 friends about middle school age, were sitting next to each other texting other people. It was as if, they would tell their parents that they were "hanging out", and what that really meant was they were sitting next to each other, texting other people that were not on the bus, and then when they got home, they would text each other about what the other people they were texting said or did?? It just made me feel like they missed out on something.
I am mostly curious to see what will happen with the digital generation. I am going to really try and just limit my use of technology for the next week... I wonder how productive that will make me....
I have had a few conversations with some of my friends about this modern day phenomenon ... And it has always baffled us. When I was in high school, none of us had cells phones and in grade 12, only me and another guy in our clique had cells, and this was closer to the point of graduation for us. Now, 8-year-olds have cell phones for "safety" purposes, as their parents would claim. While I am grateful with the applications that are on my iPhone that assist me with my serious directionally-challenged-ness, I miss the personal closeness of human connections and actually seeing someone's expressions and not just limiting them to an Emojicon...
The instance that really got me thinking about this was the time when I was taking the bus and 3 friends about middle school age, were sitting next to each other texting other people. It was as if, they would tell their parents that they were "hanging out", and what that really meant was they were sitting next to each other, texting other people that were not on the bus, and then when they got home, they would text each other about what the other people they were texting said or did?? It just made me feel like they missed out on something.
I am mostly curious to see what will happen with the digital generation. I am going to really try and just limit my use of technology for the next week... I wonder how productive that will make me....
Monday, 7 January 2013
Only Way is UP
I was feeling down today and I just was wondering why everything seemed to be going wrong. I just want all my things to be perfect and competitive. I am so behind in everything right now and I can't do any of my work at home. I have to do it here at work because I don't have cable/internet yet.
It has been a long time coming to let go of all my discouragements. I can only go up from here. I have t make the choice to let go of all my fears of failure because I only loose if I stop going forward. I do not need any support from any person. I need to start looking within for the resources and start relying more heavily on my spirit. I have to stop slacking and make sure that I use every moment wisely. This is my year to make it happen. Time is just slipping away and I have today. And all I have is today to get everything done. It doesn't matter how much I fight with the computer and how long the formatting takes. I have to work to make it happen and be consistent with that work.
I am so glad that I am out here on my own... I think this whole experience will truly make me stronger and stronger by the day.
I chose now to look up or forward. Never down, nor backwards.
"What's the worst that could happen if you kept going and don't reach your goal?' ~ Tiny Buddah
It has been a long time coming to let go of all my discouragements. I can only go up from here. I have t make the choice to let go of all my fears of failure because I only loose if I stop going forward. I do not need any support from any person. I need to start looking within for the resources and start relying more heavily on my spirit. I have to stop slacking and make sure that I use every moment wisely. This is my year to make it happen. Time is just slipping away and I have today. And all I have is today to get everything done. It doesn't matter how much I fight with the computer and how long the formatting takes. I have to work to make it happen and be consistent with that work.
I am so glad that I am out here on my own... I think this whole experience will truly make me stronger and stronger by the day.
I chose now to look up or forward. Never down, nor backwards.
"What's the worst that could happen if you kept going and don't reach your goal?' ~ Tiny Buddah
Thursday, 3 January 2013
New Beginnings
It was such a busy day today... in fact it was such a busy week. I am really behind on the updates on my website and I am not sure if I have everything ready to move in, but I am all packed and ready to go and I am so certain with all my heart that my dreams will come true and everything that I ever wished for or hoped for is around the corner.
It's a great feeling to have. I am so focused. I am not distracted by what's around me, and I am not living my life to please anyone. I am keeping up with my moral standards and going hard for the dream of a life time. I love how life has brought the right people into my life at the right times. These people have encouraged me and cultivated a strength in my perceptions of the world and allowed me to have faith that love exists in this universe and it is a powerful force.
From these two specific individuals, I received two amazing quotes that helped set the tone for what I am doing now. The first quote was "The expert in anything was once a beginner."~ Unknown. I realized that taking on a field that I know very little about is going to be a lot of work, but the beautiful thing about this field is that, I am highly interested in it and I am certain that it will take me far and allow me to interact more with people and learn from them. The second quote was "If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal not people, and not objects." ~ Albert Einstein. This encouraged me because it is where I am going and I am actually putting it into practice. I used to drop everything for the people around me and tried my best to help everyone out as much as possible, or be where they needed me to be, or dote on the with all I have. But recently I took specific people out of the equation and I am focused on the goal, and how the goal will give back to the world and community at large and not just a small group of individuals. Now that I am focused on the goal and what I need to do to achieve it.
I initially thought of writing a huge page long blog about what is going on, and the many triumphs of today, but I'll save that for the end of this month when I have reached the overall goal.... This is so exciting...
It's a great feeling to have. I am so focused. I am not distracted by what's around me, and I am not living my life to please anyone. I am keeping up with my moral standards and going hard for the dream of a life time. I love how life has brought the right people into my life at the right times. These people have encouraged me and cultivated a strength in my perceptions of the world and allowed me to have faith that love exists in this universe and it is a powerful force.
From these two specific individuals, I received two amazing quotes that helped set the tone for what I am doing now. The first quote was "The expert in anything was once a beginner."~ Unknown. I realized that taking on a field that I know very little about is going to be a lot of work, but the beautiful thing about this field is that, I am highly interested in it and I am certain that it will take me far and allow me to interact more with people and learn from them. The second quote was "If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal not people, and not objects." ~ Albert Einstein. This encouraged me because it is where I am going and I am actually putting it into practice. I used to drop everything for the people around me and tried my best to help everyone out as much as possible, or be where they needed me to be, or dote on the with all I have. But recently I took specific people out of the equation and I am focused on the goal, and how the goal will give back to the world and community at large and not just a small group of individuals. Now that I am focused on the goal and what I need to do to achieve it.
I initially thought of writing a huge page long blog about what is going on, and the many triumphs of today, but I'll save that for the end of this month when I have reached the overall goal.... This is so exciting...
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